my parents was always like "y cant you be more like him"etc. telling me how more loyal he is and how his got a better attitude etc

 

when u was all alone as he was going to a high school no where near where he lived (long story, but they specilied so it suited him better) i included him in my activited (as and when i could) so he wasnt left out.

 

well now that i dont have the cash to go out and i really need people to occationally make the effort to see me for a change, my fukin brother wont even walk 5 mins down the road (i live that close to him) to visit me. he doesnt ring/text me.

 

i texted him a moment ago asking what his up to and he said "i'm downt he pub - bye" fukin rude git. all the times i've put my own personal time to one side to spend time with him becuase he needed the company and now his too fukin selfish to even text me

 

wanker

thats sad hun - i never get to see my brother anymore he is in london!

 

the worst thing is i was always lead to belive that I was the selfish one!!!

 

i give sooo much time to people and i feel like the people i seek comfort from the most are the ones least likely to be there