Blocked

[James]

OK, maybe I'm just being a bit paranoid but for several weeks now I've hardly been able to speak to anyone, I've been accused of not replying to threads in here and yet most of them were replied to a while back. I get the feeling that I may actually even be blocked by a few people. I fail to see what I have done wrong, I've said all along that CTW is something that I cant necessarily work on constatntly and that I have to fit it around my existing workload. My work is still full on but I find I do have time to be on here most nights to see if there is anything that needs doing in terms of moving posts and replying to any queries - I'm basically doing all I can.

 

Maria - you seem to not want to speak at all on MSN, you wont reply to PMs and you wont even speak to me on the phone - can you at least tell me where I stand cos I dont think this is very fair at all. I see you posting on HarderFaster a lot more than this site - thats fine I dont have a problem but at least let me and CTW know where it stands. Please let me know whether you can make CentreParcs as stated in my text the other night as I need to let my sister know ASAP as its selling out for Easter.

 

Thank you.

 

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[Guest]

You are a LIER ! I jhave ALWAYS without FAIL replied to EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUR PMS !!!!!!!!!!!!! I have replied to your PM which you are now reading, I HAVE answered your text messages but you are on my case all the time .. I have such a stressfull time ahead of me in college with EXAMS coming up - this isn't easy for me with my study structure at the moment because I am now on the second part of my course and it is getting harder, and even more harder with you manipulating my thoughts as always on text / mail / PM - Just because I post on another message board dont you fucking DARE give me an ultimatum between CTW and another message board - DO YOU NOT EVEN SEE HOW CHILDISH AND PATHETIC THAT IS ? it's ok for you to join other sites in search for other friends, but you won't let me post on another message board ? Stop trying to control me James because I am done with that crap ok !

 

I aint even on MSN right now ok so quit ASSUMING I have BLOCKED you ! I did block you but I took you off because I am really passed the childish stage now ok - neither of us spoke on MSN the other evening - you were on Busy, but you didn't message me did you ? Why should I keep on running to you James when that is ALL I have ever done ?

 

Now do me a favour .. quit with the ultimatums and GROW UP. If I didn't wana be on CTW I wouldn't bother coming on AT ALL.

 

Now use your head and GO FIGURE !!

 

Sorry guys.

[Guest]

As for Center parks - I don't think so ! I asked you WELL before christmas lets take your family up on the offer - but you said to me skiiing with yout MATES was MORE IMPORTANT and skiing would cost about 1k for you, the same in total for both of us to go to Centerparks - an dyour not exactly skint are you ? Stop trying to talk with your wallet because it pisses me right off. Money is NOT the BE all and ENd all.. not for me anyway - in fact .. I HATE money !

 

Ever heard of Priorites ? Nah, dont think you have ! Whereas, I HAVE and always DID HAVE = YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Just leave me be untill I am ready to be your friend James ok ! YOU spoilt it and it won't EVER be the same again because I am TIRED of TRYING and I am not doing it anymore ! As much as I have always wanted to be with you and have a life with you - it's not goign to happen now ! PLEASE CONSIDER HOW I FEEL - I'm not happy James - havn't been for such a long time .. I just can't be happy with you anymore I am sorry.

[James]

I am very very mentally drained and very confused i've replied to you on PM - thank you for replying.

 

skiing i cancelled and put you first, although i didnt see a problem with wanting to go cos i still havent been for several years and its what i enjoy the most. i had also only just taken you to thailand which we enjoyed so i didnt think 1 week (on a week i didnt see you) would be such an issue. i cancelled it anyway and opted to book centreparcs with the family, including you, so we could spend some quality time together and get to talk away from the site and away from work in a relaxing envionment.

 

you are very wrong on 2 major counts - i DONT have an EGO and I DONT talk with my money - i really did think you knew me better than that and that i do these things because i like to see people happy - nothing more. money means nothing to me either which is why i spend all of it each month, every month and why i inject as much into this site as i can and offer to pay for peoples tickets etc

 

I dont manipulate you i dont know where this comes from. i am not upset cos i'm on my own i'm upset cos i'm missing YOU, for being YOU, nothing more.

 

In terms of being Friends I've just confirmed in PM back to you that this is simply not possible for me - i just physically cant do it - i dont believe 2 people as close as we were can simply be 'just friends' - i know i cant - i see you are FAR more than that and i had a lot of very serious plans for us and our future - i cant just see you in 'a friend' light from this day forth. This makes things very complicated on the site but in no way would i say you cant be here i'm not that childish.

 

I said i'd reply in pm so apologies for replying here partly but i want to make it crystal clear what my feelings are to people as my head is really confused right now with the total change in tide.

[Guest]

i cancelled it anyway and opted to book centreparcs with the family, including you, so we could spend some quality time together and get to talk away from the site and away from work in a relaxing envionment. 

 

 

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what, like Thailand ?? whgat did you do ALL holiday James in Thailand ? READ YOUR FUCKIGN WORK BOOK BY THE POOL, IN BED, WAKIGN UP IN THE NIGHT READING THIS FUCKING BOOK - IT'S ALL YOU EVER DID READ READ READ READ READ HAVE A SHIT READ READ READ .. and you said you had time for me ? Bollox you did - I have thanks you so much for that holiday becauise it was a holiday of a life time .. not thanking you because I felt I had to .. but because I MEANT IT. All the while being on holiday though, I was jelous oi fEVERY SINGLE COUPLE I was near. In the pool, soppy couples being romantic, whereas you would always push me away !

 

You can do what you want with skiiing - I have never stopped you doing what you want, not like it would have mattered if I did, because you did what you like when you liked anyway, didn't ya ! You are such a double standard bullshiting get James you have completely messed up my morals thinking the morals I had in place throughout my life are all dso fucking wrong !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

You manipulate everything I say - my thoughts - how i feel about you - when you do seomthing wrong you turn it reounf onto me and leave me thining I have done wriong .. you have manipulated me so bad I have had to fucking question myself about thinking I need to see a fucking councellor !! I never used to be like that before I met you !!! In fact Lisa has been my councellor the last TWO YEARS and I have no idea why she hasn't dumnped our friendship because all I have done is complain about you .. and how you have been such a 'care free' BOY !

 

Im not replying any more - I cam eon this PC ESPECIALLY tonight to sit a mock examination .. LIKE FUCK CAN I NOW !

[James]

you obviously feel VERY strongly that I have MANIPULATED you, this upsets me beyond BELIEF as ALL i have EVER done is in fact try to help you and if you remember it was in fact ME who INSISTED and recommended that you DO take out a course and I subsequently bought you that book to aid you.

 

Thank you though, you have finally made things much clearer to me and that you really ARE extremely unhappy so I will leave you to get on with things as I'm obviously just 'harming' you further.

 

All I will say is that i HONESTLY had no idea that for 'over a year' (your words) I have been manipulating you and causing you upset. I obviously seriously need to look at my character and the way I speak to a g/f. It wasnt somehting I thought I was particularly bad at and i thought I had a very caring attitude but if this is not the case then I will need to (very quickly) review how I portray myself to freinds, family and g/f

[Guest]

you obviously feel VERY strongly that I have MANIPULATED you, this upsets me beyond BELIEF as ALL i have EVER done is in fact try to help you and if you remember it was in fact ME who INSISTED and recommended that you DO take out a course and I subsequently bought you that book to aid you.

 

ok, so shall I DITCH College now then, considering you said to me the other day, because you said I SHOULD go on a course, iv now thrown it BACK in your FACE ?

 

 

 

All I will say is that i HONESTLY had no idea that for 'over a year' (your words) I have been manipulating you and causing you upset. 

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I will quite GLADY attach all MSN Chat logs for proof how you have manipulated me of you like ? Say the word and I WILL !

 

You speak to me on MSN when you are pissed, like a bit of SHIT, your flirtatious texts to another FEMALE FOUR WEEKS AGO

 

ANYONE THINK THAT'S FUCKING FAIR OR WHAT ?

 

You are fucking mental (and you've almost made me mental too)

[James]

closing this thread, feel free to re-open it and post what you like, but please also reply to my final PM.

[Guest]

Why have you closed this thread now James ? Don't you think you best Liase with the mods to check this is the appropriate action to take ?

[James]

Liam has, quite rightly, asked me for us to take this to PM

 

I am only human I felt i had to cry out and say something to get a response out of you - I have achieved that goal and I now have a clearer understanding of the sitation which has helped a lot.

[Guest]

Liam has, quite rightly, asked me for us to take this to PM

 

 

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You had NO RIGHT to bring this on the board - I have even SHAMED myself in retaliating to you in front of EVERYONE. I was replying to you in PM untill I seen this post you had composed ! Do you really think I would go as low as the past idiots and start posting dirty laundry on a public forum ? NO. I DIDN'T.

 

THREAD LOCKED.

 

Liam - apologises - apologies to everyone in fact ! All this crap has been bottled up in my own little head because the person who claims he loves me, has never been there to LISTEN.

[Lisa]

Sorry but I opened to just quickly reply asking any chance this could be deleted please..

 

What ever issues you guys have at the mo, crew is not the place for it

 

Sort it out James

[James]

Sort it out James

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That was precisely what I was trying to do - but as I was blocked on MSN and couldnt get a fast reply on PM and text I thought this would speed up the process of getting a reply - and it worked, and I've got the response I required. I'm only human and we're all grown up enough in here to deal with one thread which I felt was important enough to raise as its affecting the 'teamwork'

 

Can we leave this post closed now - i think we've all collectively closed this about 5 times now.

[Guest]

Sort it out James

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That was precisely what I was trying to do - but as I was blocked on MSN and couldnt get a fast reply on PM and text I thought this would speed up the process of getting a reply - and it worked,

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It's not a game James .. and I replied to your PM .. text .. e:mail .. etc.

 

Please delete this thread entirely. I don't wnat peopel knowing the ins and outs of my private life.